Time has taken over me i think. I never really sit down and think about what's going on around me. Besides what's clearly in front of my face. Before moving here i felt like i was trapped in a small dark box. I've lived in the North Country my entire life. I was born there. Some love it, some need to get out and explore. And quit frankly i am one of those people who needed to get out. And i did. There are lots of things i like about living in NY, but there just came a time where i felt so trapped and closed in. Finding out Kyle was moving to Texas i was ecstatic! I was finally getting out of here! Don't get me wrong, i love where i come from, but i like being here. Here as in my new life, new friends, and new home. I miss people in NY, I do. But Texas is my home now.

With that being said. I thought it was going to be a challenge to find new friends here. I was wrong! I think it's easy for me to make friends because God made me so loony. I like people. And i think people see that. (I hope). I've been blessed with friends here that make me feel comfortable. I can be myself around anyone. New stories, new laughs, new friends are my kind of living.

Every morning i wake up, take the dog out, and eat breakfast on the couch. Or fall back asleep. Growing up some of us think of the day we'll get married and start a family. I know i did. And honestly, i never thought that it would come this quick. Graduating and going to college is what i thought my plan was going to be. But i love the way God turned it around and made it his vision. Not mine. I am happy with how my life has turned out. Yes, i am young. But i wanted this and i knew i was ready. And God knew what was in my heart and what i was longing for. And he fulfilled what my heart desired. I don't regret getting married at 18. I have been put down many times about being to young and not being ready, or rushing into something that I wasn't capable of doing yet. I got bitter towards allot of people. Sometimes i feel like I'm not perfect enough to please everyones opinions. And i will never please anyone. People make there own decisions. What i don't understand is, Kyle and I put God first in everything. We made sure God was our center with any decision he made or i made. And still. It just didn't please everyone. And it wont. I was hurt, and still am hurt. But God is taking control of my heart and making it right. I'm a very forgiving person, but sometimes when i think of the things that were said i start to get upset or angry. It's wrong of me to do that. I know. But I'm working on it. And that goes back to feeling trapped in a dark box. I needed to smell fresh air for once. And I'm happy i did. I tend to hold things inside. I don't like talking about my feelings or what i am thinking about. My way is "if i forget about it, it'll go away". But luckily i have a husband who gets on my butt about it all the time. I've realized life is to short to let inconsiderate people let you down. I have a God who loves me unconditionally and who helps me threw any circumstance. And a husband who lifts me up when i feel like crashing.


As i see it now. Life is Good. : )

Just a few hours ago Kyle came up to me and showed me his cell phone. He goes, "look at the date, it's been 1 month since we've been married".

Has it really been a month already? It seems like it's only been about 2 weeks. I can't believe how quickly time is flying by. I enjoy it though. It's been cool here. Well, Hot for you northerners. It's been in the mid 90's for the past couple weeks. That's cool for Laredo. Supposed to be around 108-115. But, I'm not complaining.

I was just realizing that i know so many pregnant women. Randomly came up when i saw photos of some people, and being friends with one here in Laredo, and Kyle mentioning one. About 11 of them. Funny.

Kyle is sleeping right now, he goes to bed early on day shift. He has to get up at 4:30 in the morning everyday. Poor guy, i definitely couldn't do it. But he loves his job so it doesn't bother him much.

Finally i can drive around this crazy town of Laredo. At first i was a little hesitant because all the drivers here are nuts! Not only do you have to watch the road when you drive, but also the drivers! Don't ever buy or bring a new vehicle to Laredo.. Seriously, Kyle's is already banged up by other people who don't care. Dents on every corner of the vehicle, scratches from the tip to the bottom. So we're going to wait to buy another vehicle until we get back up north somewhere.

So yes, I AM taking Belly Dancing lessons. And i absolutely love it. It keeps me in good shape and I'm doing what i love to do. Dance. Kyle thinks i should do more dances, so I am thinking about also doing Bally. Maybe..

*well, here i am, sitting on an extra mattress that was in the house on my floor, borrowing my brothers laptop till i get down there. walking in this room everyday brings me back so many fun, not so fun memories. i really am going to miss my room that i grew up in my entire life. (almost). just thinking that this will never be "my" room again. but a storage or something. 10 years from now i'll walk in here and just be laughing at myself for keeping my room the way i did. or the colors i picked out. and painting them 4 times. guess i just couldn't get enough of different colors. but, leaving the old and bring in the new is exactly what i want. moving into an apartment, then a house will be like a big bed room for me. decorating the way i want, in the style i choose. it will indeed be exciting.


*my brothers puppy is so incredibly adorable. she very well is a needy puppy. and she's growing so fast. we got her couple weeks ago and i could pick her up easily, now i fall over trying! i guess thats the german sheperd in her. i'm going to miss her when i leave. oh, and she's quit the soccer player. including popping my soccer balls!


*so, is summer actually creeping its way back up again? it's been nice weather these past couple days, and i am enjoying it very much so. my dad said i look like a hawaiian chick because i'm really dark now. i love the sun. and moving the Texas will be perfect i guess.